Fish it.

My coach told me today that I may not be the main center for the next year school team.
Ahhhhhhhhhhh, I must jia you lo.
I must pick up as much as I can in this six months.


Anyway
Natalie and I met up first before Sec one netball training coz I intended to check out the ankle guard that anna has. It cost a freaking $18.90. Decided not to waste the money and Anna has agreed to lend me hers until my ankle recovers. -beam-


Oh before that, I FORGOT TO BRING MY BIO FILE TO SCHOOL AND THE DUE DATE IS TOMRROW. Tell me, am i dumb, or dumb? Now I have to make a special trip down to amk just because of the file. I am so angry with myself. How could I forget. Arggggh!!!!


Hmm, then we lunched and talked and went popular. Bought letter writing paper. Haha. We were laming around and agreed to write letter to one another. Then went school.

The sun is so so so so so hot. I swear I am m e l t i n g. And I didnt wear contacts coz I thought i would not be training due to my sprained ankle. But I could not resist the temptation la. Then ran an extra round while the sec one and sec twos stopped. One round is just NOT enough to train stamina. Three rounds is only okay okay only. I think four rounds is really those that test our stamina.


Never mind.


Then, we trained the sec one. Like did feeding with them with really hard passes. Then lopes and reflexes la.


Then game. I played GK, can you guys believe it? asshole la. Stupid elia pulled me and insisted that I play GK. Asshole!!! I have not poke you enough yet okayyyy. But half time, i switched with jody and played center. I lurrrveeee center position. Hopefully by next year, I will be good enough to be in main seven. *pray* But Coach always either put me as GA or Wa nowdays, how am I suppose to know whether I have improved or not. I MUST IMPROVE!!! I DUN CARE.


-wail-


Nevermind, this template isnt really nice. Haha. I keep changing blogskin. heh.

Im so bored.
Babysitting for my youngest sister now.
Both my mother and my sister are in the clinic now.
Both of them are sick.
Played with my sister building blocks and donkey.
She didnt want the donkey card. So bad.
And Wanted me to take the card.
Haha.
So young yet so scheming.

Finally,
she is watching wu yan de ai and me on the com.
I am so bored.
To be blogging this.


I'm so bored.

Yay, i finally did something.
Finished one maths worksheet and did bio file.

My skin gonna peel after all.
Damn.Damn. Damn.

Got it From friendster:


It's about the same for both genders, so juzchange the he to she, him to her, etc if you're a guy.

In the presence of him, you pretend to ignorehim, and look away.But hoping that he'll look your way.

But when he is no longer there, you lookaround to find him.And get so disappointed to know that heis gone.

Although you are talking to someone else,your eyes are fixed on him.

You find your textbooks filled with his name.And in the midst of your school desk,you could actually spot his name there.

Everytime your handphone beeps,you hope to see his name..When it's not him, you get so depressed.

When your phone gets quiet, you have thetemptation to sms him.When he doesn't reply, you let yourimagination run wild and get so sad.

Cos you feel unimportant to him. Andsometimes wonder,if he had even forgotten your existance.

Three quarters of your handphone inbox arehis smses.And you find yourself unable to delete anyone of them.When you really have to, you feelyour heartache.

When there's a new movie out, the firstperson you WISHED to watch with, is him.But always end up watching it with your friends.

When people mention the words " ValentinesDay",The first thing that appears in your mind, ishis name.

You realise that your conversations with yourfriends never fail to include him in your topic.

You worry if he would fall for someone else,And it hurts when you know that the personwill never be you.

You find yourself getting so affected by justone word or action from him.

Sometimes you get angry with him for somereasons, and feel yourself hating him.But once you see him again, your heart melts,and find yourself loving him, once more.

You swore for more than a hundred timesnever to sms him again,but found yourself sending a message,and the receipient, is him.

You try to forget him, but got reminded ofyour memories with him.

Many times, you force yourself to stop likinghim,But found it even harder than killing yourself.

You try to convince yourself, that you dontlike him anymore.But find the person on your mind to still be him.

While you are reading this, the one that hasappeared on your mind, is him, right?

It is tired to live in pretence and lies.

You cant avoid it.
Love is cruel.
It hurts, almost all the time.




how true.

Ha, I did nothing today.
Tuition did graphs of functions.
Finally, that topic made some sense.
But I still don't understand some parts. Im so freaky dead.

Then after tuition, I went pharmacy and bought the aloe vera gel to put on my roasted skin.
Hopefully the skin wont peel, coz i like the tan.
It looks nice and healthy.
I don't want my skin to peel.
So far it hasnt, but it's like on the verge of peeling.
damn.

And my ankle swell. Haiya.
I still wanna train for netball and go swimming leh.
I hate my sprained ankle.
Damndamndamn.

I want it to heal faster. but I don't want to go see a doc.
this morning my dad rubbed it for me and it hurt like hell. I had no pillow to squeezed or anything, but it hurt damn lot. I can't imagine what the doc would do when I go see him. I'll probably die there or something.

And I bought new contacts lenses already and the solution. Yeah.

And I want to buy ankle guard that's the same as anna's. My current ankle guard is not very good. Those slip in type and you have to twist your ankle to get it in or out of it. And with a sprained ankle, it's not easy.

Fish it, I'm broke.
Oh, owe anna a dollar.

i am so exhausted.
The netball carnival today was okay la.
Nothing in my tean got screwed up.
But we got all those tough schools.
Like girls schools.
-sigh-

But Im really happy that our juniors got second for the c div.
So proud of them.
Haha.
But we had to play while they go receive their prizes and we could not cheer for them.
Bleargh.

And I think I played too agressive today.
The number of contact and obstruction I made was shocking.
And I pissed one of the school player off.
But I don't think I was in the wrong since it was their player who played rough first.
I just followed. And I don't think i played really rough leh.

Never mind.

I'm millions shade darker and I lurrrvee my new tan.But it's not even so I wanna go swimming. But i cant swim with a sprained ankle. So stupid!!! And i don't know how long it will take for it to heal. Damn. I don't want my skin to peel!!! It's so icky.

Okay, then after that we went suntec and had our dinner, walked and walked and walked. From city link to suntec. Amd someone we ddon't know, selling cookies, asked whether we were canoe-ist. Coz we looked so burned. So funny.

Im so tired. I hope my ankle heal faster. *lets pray together*

Today's Anderson Sports day.
Nothing much to blog about.
Coz it was boring.
I don't know, but this year sports day seemed so much less fun than the previous two years.

School started and ended.
Went and ate kfc with jody, zijun, anna, natalie and weeter.
Waited for the anna and natalie until my stomach was rotting with hydrochloric acid.
I was so freaking hungry.
The ate zinger meal.
Satisfied. =)

Took taxi there and zj and weeter shared the fare.
Yeah, jody and I got a free ride.
hi^5!!!
Then found Mas and sat down and started slacking.

The stupid banner making thing made me so sad.
We put in effort in painting the banner and it turned out to be quite nice.
And all went down the drain just because we were pole-less.
So mas, shuwei, serene, renying, xinyi and me ran around like idiots looking for pole only to find ourselves "disqualified".
And Mrs Lawrence said that our scorpion is evil and has a negative image and what crap.
Must be THE PEARL.
It all depends on one's perspective and views what.
Never mind, love our banner to bit.

Then slacked and slacked and slacked.
We ran a bit with the banner. The guys ran so fast for what. Couldnt catch up so follows Mas and strolled to the spectators stand. Took class pictures. I must have sucked in there.

Then went and had dinner with xinyi, zanyu and laptak in northpoint.
Got attracted to adidas watches.
*in heaven*
Ate Mac.
Im so gonna grow fat.
Talked about lots of stuff, more of family stuff.
Met stupid letchie.
Nightmare.
But the slippers nice right???
Haha.
Then went and photocopy consent forms.
Went home and prepare for tomorrow's carnvial.

I need luck for tmr's netball carnival.
I hope everything goes smoothly.
And Im so happie that Syaf can go.

Rock on giants!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

I salute Lisda, Claire and Meiying. Totally.
For running netball so well.
And being such a good captain.
They deserve my respect totally.

I am, once again, being screamed at by my coach. I always do. Next time, I shall turn and join my friends. I am tired. Stressed and exhausted. I hate it when coach scream at me and most of the time it's about bibs. Sytupid bibs. I think I will be happier being a normal player. So I can concentrate on improving my skils and studies.

I am just not to be a leader. I am someone who follow instead of lead. Haiya, I know I should not be whinning now and do the best for the team. Get them all ready up and motivated.

But whenever i think of netball, responsibilities will come to my mind, instead of skills, fun, bonding and stuff. I am just not cut to be a captain. I cant take stress. And next time if you guys see im on the verge of tears, just keave me alone. I am quite sure I wont cry but when people start going, " oh no, relax, don't cry." I will automatically start treaing. So ya. but thanks Izzah and Mas. Love u guys to bits.


Maybe I should just let someone better to take over my place la. Oh no.
But I still must take those responsibilities until i really quit la.
And why isnt Madam Hee on-ing her phone.
I got urgent matter to inform her.



Fish it.


All my siblings are sick. And my parents expect me to get worried together. It's not like I don't care about my sister. But I cant do anything at home other than go online and rot to death. My cca thinger is so screwed up. My parents are so frreaking unreasonable. (they forbided me to eat fries and chocolate and buy fbt shorts.) And they get so angry when i get home a bit later than usual. I don't lah. I am frustrated, so angry, so stressed, so tired. I don't know what's wrong with them, or what's wrong with me. All the things are getting bad to worse.


I wonder how i am gonna put everything right?

Today was pretty much like other days.
All those boring boring subjects.

And i stayed back for banner making, hmmm, or rather, flag making today. =)
Yes, i am nice.
And truthfully, the flag turned out to be really





NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!




We took a lot lesser time than we expected. It was simple and nice. The colour combi was nice, and the background colour emphasized on everything. Man, we rock. But WHO"S RUNNING??? Haiyaaa.

Had lunch in the coffeeshop with lingyan initially, then were joined by layjia and jody, then natalie and anna. Lingyan left early, then i went back school with them. Painted. It was nice.


Don't feel like blogging le. Wanna flood layjie's testimonial. But she has a lot le. Blahhhh...

Syafiqah, YOU HAVE TO GO FOR THE NETBALL CARNIVAL THIS SATURDAY!!!!!

Please. If you do go, you can forget about the chocolate thingy.

Coz, if you are not going, I will have to play GA, which I have simply no idea on how to play well in that position anymore. My movements in the semi circle have gone rusty. I forgot all those movements. I am dead, dead, dead. Ohh, and not forgetting those awful shots I kept missing during training.

I missed my Center position. I didnt play center at all, and yep, I missed it. -wail-

But training today was definately tougher than the past ones, and it felt good. To be sweating profusely again. To feel my heart pounding really hard in my chest. To feel tired again. But i think it can be tougher. Like 3 rounds the school , timed and improve the timing every time.

And maybe do more sprinting, as anna suggested.
I think sec three must gather and suggest on how to toughen our training. At the rate at what we are going, we will never be ready for our tournament. We musnt slack man. Got all motivated when Mas, Nat, ZJ, Anna and me sat down in one corner during lit, in library, and started discussing about our trainings. Like how slack they had been this few days.

I must improve on my shots, my shooting and my elevation.
Wonder how im gonna accomplish that.
Oh, and my speed.

I got 23rd in class. Damn, so bad.
I have deproved. Since last year.
I have to study like hell next term, hmmm, during junes.
Blah, it sounds so sickk.
I wanna go swimming.
I WANT MY TAN!!!!!!!
I became so frreaking Yellow. -sinful-
My mum hid the almond chocolates coz she heard me coughing yesterday. DAMNDAMNDAMN.
Never mind, that WILL NOT stop me from eating them. I shall buy them myself tomorrow.
Heh.

Im so bloated.

My uncle had house warming and it's a way to celebrate my grandma's birthday. We had buffet and food was great. I kept taking one serving after another. Haha. The curry and chicken wing are good. Then watched Kung Fu hustle and a bit of te day after tomorrow. My cousins came and we talked, as usual. We did our usual stuff, like going through one another's handphones, to see whether they have a girlfriend or what. Or in my case, a boyfriend. It was damn funny.

And my cousin erased ALL his message before he arrived. Asshole. I don't bother erasing mine. Nothing to see also what.

Left before dinner and I continued watching wu yan de ai. One more disc before the show ends. Touching*

okay, gonna watch tong yi wu yan xia now.

Cyaaa =)

Ahhhhh evonna!!!!!
I cant redownload msn toolbar and it means that my blogger homepage gonna remain cheena!!! oh mannn.

I'm so depressed.

And i spent an hour plus trying to find something that might give me an idea on how to get rid of spyware. I think my com, unfortuantely, has it. That's the only explanation why my com always has unusal pop ups (major irritants), severe delayed reaction and other weird weird stuff.

Man. And I cant seem to persuade my Dad to get a new com.
My sis and I seem to be always waiting for each other to get offline. And not forgetting my that 4 years old sister. I had to wait for her to finish messing with microsoft windows before i could sign into msn.

It does not make sense.
Really.

I am sick, VERY sick, of having to wait for my com to finish loading a window.
I cant wait to throw this com out of my window.

How many times have I blogged today?
I have no life. haizz

Going to my uncle's house tomorrow and I get to meet my cousins!!! Yay!!! I just love chatting and teasing my cousins. But sadly both of them are guys but at least they are around the same age as me. So we can talk about basically everything and will not run out of topics.

Ooohh, and I wonder what new images will they have now.

Man, i hate my com.

Was watching wu yan de ai vcd (the show that featured singaporeans, doctors, nurses and patients during SARS period.) yepp. Was once again touched by the show. It was really sad and touching. Especially when doctors and nurses die from the virus just because they took care of the patients.

I wanna be a doctor. Totally motivated again. Heh.
I wanna wear the white coat and the i forgot what instrument it is called hung around my neck.
But there is a bloody looooong way for me to go and I don't know whether my family is strong enough financially to send me for further studies.

Anyway I finished my Emaths tuition homework and did another two maps for geography. -beam- *sense of achievement* I hate maps. They are so frreaking huge. So troublesome. Since my table is too small for the map, let alone my other stuff, I decided to sprawl on the floor and do. I looked stupid. Must have. Splayed on the floor, trying to get the gradient of some stupid road.

I hate MAPS.

So now I have Amaths coordinate geometry. Oh no, there's bloody lot of questions. Haizz.

My ears are blocked. Man, I am so addicted to almond chocolates now.

Fat, fat, fat. =)

I shall declare hatred for my com.

I HATE IT!!!

I have to wait like 10s for it to have a reaction to whatever link i have clicked. So I spent half the time surfing, waiting for my com. Asshole.

Anyway, I was doing my Emaths tuition homework while my youngest sister, age 4 years old, was playing the com. Yes, she is only four years old and knows how to use microsoft word. When I was four years old, I didnt know computers existed. She's really fortunate. She even knows how to take pictures using both my and my sis's phones. Then she was like inserting pictures, enlarging them and messing around with word art when she accidentally clicked on the PRINT icon. Then my printer started printing, and my printer prints LOUDLY and causes my whole computer table to start trembling. She freaked and started crying and refused to play anymore though she looked kind of amused that whatever she has done on the computer screen were down on a paper.

Never mind.

Now that I am online, I dont feel like going back to my homework.

Yay, i got boulevard of broken dreams lyrics down on the paper. I'm so happy.=)

Thanks to Mas, I have totally fallen in love with that song. It is nicer than tonghua, to be truthful. But tonghua still rocks nevertheless.

Hey, I'm blogging in proper English. Haha.

I'm so weird.

Oh no, i downloaded the msn toolbar and blogger has became so cheena. And i can't redownload Msn and change the language and make it back to English.

Asshole.

Damndamndamn.

I thought I brought home my chemistry textbook but apparently I didn't. And i don't think I left it in my locker coz I know my load was very light and chemistry textbook is very heavy. Oh no. And my calculator is gone. What the hell.

My things are missing.

And letch please stop doodling in my handbook. Your handwriting is terrible. My book is permanantly disfigured by you. I shall go mass doodle in your book, on every single page, in your book. I'm totally serious. An eye for an eye.

Heh. =)

So I spent my morning reading through thegeog map thinger, planning to do some maps but I didnt in the end. Ahhh. I'm so slacked.

Just where did my chem textbook and calculator go to. They don't come cheap and I don't want to buy another one. -wail-

Asshole!!!! Msn wouldn't let me sign in without downloading the latest version of msn messenger. Asshole!!!!

And my mum is angry with me for not calling her to inform her that I'm going to my friend's house, or rather, I called late. Hmmm, it's partly my fault since I forgot to. It totally slipped through my mind. She grounded me but I don't really give a damn lah.

Great.

What's next?

Watched movie for literature tiday. And it was kind of depressing.
i think,
the worst thing that can happen to a girl is to marry a wrong guy. A guy who will hit and abuse.
THE WORST THING.

I don't know. It's kindof scary. I don't want to get marry of THAT's gonna happen to me....

Yeah!!! All thanks to Speech day, we, andersonians, managed to escape from school after 10.20am. Was planning to go layjia's house to watch movie but in the end, we did go her house, but we did not watch movie la.

hmmm, slacked on the netball court with Josy, Anna and Natalie. Then was joined by weihao, zanyu and benjamin. It was so damn bloody scorching, so Jody and I went into the shade and watch the guys shoot.

Was so frreaking hungry then so we gathered our bags and took the train to yishun where we had lunch in kfc. Man, I almost died and went heaven coz zinger meal was simply heavenly. And so was the cheesefries. The guys left first coz they got tired of waiting for us. Anyway they were Benjamin, zanyu, nigel, weihong, jiahao, weihao, hmmm think no more le ba. Dunno leh. But we girls, me, anna, natalie, jody, rachel and qianhui( i think) managed to catch up on them in the bus interchange.

Took bus and went her house. She has Dogs!!!!! Oh man, it was so cool. I like the big brown one. I swear, I'm going to get one of those when I grow up. They are so cuteeeee!!!! Played badminton, volleyball and with the dogs. There are altogether five i think.

Then anna, me, jody, natalie sat on the swing and sang tonghua again!!! haha, and yuan you hui. And i forgot le. The swing was really nice. =)

and rest are all in her , i don't know what you call, the porch area? while I sneaked up and blog this. okay, shall go back downstairs and join them later.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. xueling
2.xL
3. puny

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. xL
2. [g.i.a.n.ts] rocks
3. happie happie girl (currently)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. i like my ahir though it really does suck after trimming it.
2. legs? haha, hmmm ya. =)
3. my tan. but i want get tanner. *swimming pool!!!*

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. everything else.
2. height.
3. everything else basically

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. chinese.
2. Chinese
3. Chinese.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. any creepy crawlies that take flight.
2. horror movies.
3. losing loved ones.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Food.
2. Sleep.
3. Laughter.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. a shirt
2. a short
3. underwear=)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. simple plan!!!
2. stef sun
3. jay chou and twins

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. TONGHUA -guang liang-
2. Addicted still -simpe plan-
3. I'd do anything -simple plan-

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Feeling at ease.
2. Laughter
3. Love and trust

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. I am nice.
2. i hate school.
3. i need more money.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. lips.
2. smile.
3. everything else. haha.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. sleeping
2. slacking
3. stoning.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1.find my calculator
2. go back to sleep.
3. chunck my com out of the window.it sucks biggg time.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. paediatrician
2. psychologist
3. Social worker. -attached to the hospital-

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Europe.
2. Australia
3. paris.

THREE KIDS' NAMES YOU LIKE:
Boys:
1. Charles
2. nil
3. nil

Girls:
1. dunno lehh
2.
3.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. spend all my money.
2. make sure someone will cry for me and will miss me after i die.
3. get a new com.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i dont behave like a female sometimes.
2. hmmm...
3. dunno le.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i adore the malls.
2. I have 2 skiets in my closet!!!!!
3. i scream. haha. hmmm does that count?

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. edison chen
2. daniel wu
3. the guy who acted as ah sheng in beautiful illusion.

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. letch
2. mas
3. eileen, nat.

Urg, I feel so sleepy right now. I could almost doze off right away.

Anyway netball today was slack, coz it was raining so freaking heavily and we could not use either the canteen nor the hall. Okay well, we never use the hall. Haha, our lope passes could well smash all the lightnings into hundred billion pieces.

so when the light drizzle started to turn into a heavy rainfall, all of us scurried into the place behind all the stalls when our coach blew the whistle. Then the rain turned so stupidly heavy. We could not do a single thing. Erm, okay, all we could was slack. So Jody, Anna, Nat and I sang tonghua and Anna and me started singing addicted. Yes, by simple plan. And then we began having serious talk on our future goals.

I told them that I am kind of inspired to be a paediatrician but I will have to study have my life away before actually stepping into a hospital. And I don't really like. But other than being a doctor, I have no idea what I wanted to be. I used to be interested in police force but not really now. Psychologist? Forensic scientist? Oh my god, I just realised that all my interested goals are related to science. Oh no, and I am SO not good in science and I just cannot picture myself studying science for the rest of my life.

That's so pathetic.

Really.

Oh my god, I passed my English. I'm so frreaking glad i passed it. -beam-

Anyway, we were planning to go LayJia's house to watch house of wax and get my primary school's classmate, Amily, birthday gift. But somehow, we got hooked watching the Chinese talent time. Some were not bad, some were totally errr. Especially the guy who sang jay's song. I swear, it's jay singing, not him!!!! ptffff, but still we applauded for him. Both Jody and I agreed that it's kind of brave to be standing so high up in front of such a huge audience, with video cams nearly shoved in front of them. And let alone SINGING Songs. I WILL not go up there even if someone pays me. Hmmm, maybe for hundred bucks.

Okay and I practised my lopes passes today with Natalie, Jody and Anna. My passes are still a bit weak and crooked. Never mind, I shall practise more during netball training tomorrow. *determination* Then we had a stupid match with the guys. Haha, me, layjia, Jody, Natalie and Anna one team against Zanyu, Wei hong and Wiming ohh, and Benjamin. Weihong is freaking tall and his shots werent bad leh. haha. Sweat like hell.

Then went back to watch the talent time. Watch until it was almost over then we went back to the temp block and got our bags. Then sat down at the benches until the end of chinese talent time. Man, i love tonghua.

I'm in lurve with tonghua.
It's so freaking nice.
The mtv too.
*dazed*

he's such an asshole. =)

n homework again!!
mann, if this continues, school will be a better place for eveyone to be in. =)
anyway netball today was all right.
was raining initially, so did the bench thingy. and mr ang told me to clean the bench after it coz we stepped on it and i guessed i kinda forgot. oops, shall go check first thing in the morning, i swear.

Then ball passing, squares and thinger. was okay la.
Games were shit. I played like crap. My lopes were crooked and somehow they all got attracted to izzah. I was more like throwing them to the defenders, my opponents, then my teamates. Ya, shoot me, go ahead. I shall throw accurate and beantiful lopes from now on. But i'll need a partner to practise lopes with me leh.

haiya.

Played center and wing a. Played better for wing a. Then i managed to get the free nasi lemak rice those people who were involved in speech day got. heh. so happie =) it's quite nice leh actually. i like the chilli. yummm.

Ate under the block of flat with jody and natalie. Talked about stuff la. then rushed home coz ot was quite late already.

And

I swear i'm gonna get the last position in class. Totally. I don't know what's happening to me. Suddenly my grades, ALL MY GRADES, fell. I'm so so so so so so so so freaking dead. I have to buck up next term already. I HAVE TO. I'm going to study everyday right after school. Heh, maybe not.

I have no life. Somebody save me...

Ooooh, shall sleep already. But my hair isn't dry yet.
By the way, my fringe grew!!!
So proud of it. Wahahaha, damn, I shall stop being so egoistical. (no thanks to letch)

damn, i don't like the colour and the type of the font. but i like the design. urggh. never mind.

got drenched in the rain early in the morning, before the sun was even upp. *shake head* when i was in khatic mrt station, i was enjoying the breeze. it was freezing cold with an occasion spray of rain water. it was nice, actually. then, got into the train with darren and lingyan. got off at ang mo kio and the rain was coming down in torrent. was no longer fascinated by the rain, coz i was wondering how the hell i am suppose to reach school dry.

shared umbrella with lingyan while i lent mine to darren and zanyu. i think with, or without the umbrella, it was the still same. i was very drenched, soaked to the skin. and the worse part was that only my right side was drenched. so it felt funny, to be half-drenched. and my shoes and socks were wet. it was gross man.

so during physics i took my feet out of my shoes for my socks to dry. but they never seem to lehh. and it was freezing cold in the classroom. really really cold, my hair was standing. urgh.

and i have a cold, i think. having a running nose. asshole la. something's wrong with my immune system man. but never mind, i get to force the phlgem in my oesophagus out by blowing my nose.

gotta go study geography.
freakass.

i'm a person who cannot like something for a long time.

it explains why i am constantly changing my layout.

does it means i like changes?
heh.
i don't know.

oh my, it's so crap.

aniway

happy burfae amily!!!
happy burfday meihui!!!

had amaths tuition. sat with eileen again. haha, fine, i only sit next to her. we wore our two two class tee coincidentally. wheeee~ *telepathic* anyway we did functions for amaths, on composite functions and inverse functions. damn, he didn't have time to do graphs. i don't understand a single thing about graphs. mr wong was all enthu about teaching us graphs, mas and i have concluded. but well, he does things that we don't understand.

so dead.

finished my functions homework right after i reached home. whoo hoots. then started on patricia cornwell book. i finished fearless. okay la, it wasn't that bad. was quite nice actually, i like the way the author phrases all the sentences. spent the whole afternoon reading. i was totally engrossed with the book. then finally managed to pull myself away from the book and finished some of my emaths homework. but still one whole pile sitting at my desk.

urgh.
i just want to slack my arse off.

my fringe sucks. it is way too layered. some of it is really really short. *bleargh* i want my old fringe back.

grow hair, please grow.

today is such a boring day.
woke up at 10 and ate bread with coffee. i am so sick of bread. when i was sick, all i ate was bread. sick of it!!! totally. ya, anyway, i revised my biology today. did notes for nutrition in mammals. my notes is so pinkish, coz i used my pink marker. so pink. then finished mary-kate and ashley sweet sixteen. haha. okay fine, i read other books too. just got it from library and well letch was the one who wanted to borrow it. i just helped her keep it coz she didn't want to bring it home. but it was nice la. -beambeambeam-

then had emaths tuition. i just realised that i have not done tonnes of my tuition homework. and it just keep accumulating. mann. now i see why my results are dipping. i have slacked so much. i used to finish the homework right after the tuition and now i could not be bothered to do. really xian le la. but never mind, i shall go complete as much as i can tomorrow since we do not have any school homework. -beam-

bought a limegreen marker. whoohoots. got totally addicted to having many colourful markers, but they are expensive man. two bucks. i can have two packs of fries from western stores in coffeeshop. haha. damn, im such a glutton.

i just realised.
im constantly surrounded by clever people.
i don't get it.
we are born with the same brain, same substances, same cells.
what separate them from us?
by burying their heads in thick books? or constantly hounding after teachers demanding for explanations for functions and weathering?
what causes them to score a1s whereas people like me, score shit?
haha.
fine, my blog is starting to get depressing.
*sinful*

i suddenly miss fried rice.
whatthehell.

the truth is so glarin and yet i'm living in denial.
man, i'm dumb.

i had fun today.

bought my diamond studs.

yay. =)

my grades just took a sudden dip. in everything. in every subjects.
something's wrong with me.
got back my chinese paper.
everyone else got like 30 plus.
ya, i didn't.
was kinda depressed la.
didn't talk much, was quiet during chinese.
i don't know what happened to me.
or the people around me.
they are like scoring so frreaking high.

it scares me.

ok. netball. was crapp.
not the training, it's me, my lungs.
they were so dripping with phlegm.
i could feel them heaving up and down in my lungs.
almost couldn't breathe.
never mind.
i pulled through. heh. i wont die so early
i still have tonnes of things to do.
And i still havent got my diamond studs.
how can i die at such early age?
i havent been in lurrvveee.
i havent done a lot of thing.
yeah, no way i'm dying.
hmmm, but what if i die, like, tomorrow?
will people miss me? will people be there to cry for me? but i have not spend all my savings i saved yet leh.

do i sound sucidal? haha.

anyway, i just realised that i am such a glutton.
my cough is never gonna get well. i have been eating fries for three consecutive days, with mayo and chilli. damn. and i miss all my sugared drink. my chocolates!!! i don't care, i'm gonna eat everything i am not suppose to eat tommorrow.

i duncare. coz it's a holiday for andersonians.

and today's such a sleepy day for me. i woke up at 5.30am this morning and got ready by 6 and then my dad woke up and said that he would bring me to school. then i dozed off for half an hour before waking up again and i went school. slept in my dad's lorry all the way to school. i didn't want to get out!!! okay, then social studies was the first period. i really can't take it anymore. ss is too boring. i was listening to miss zaleha drawl about northern korean or something. then i put my head on the table, closed my eyes and before i knew, i was dozing odd, literally.

mas had to woke me and when i did, everyone had already finished their worksheets. except me. but it was quite easy la.

ahhh, i wanna sleep now.

no no, tv now. yay =)

Your Birthdate: January 5

With a birthday on the 5th of the month you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine. You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility

ahhhhhhhhhh...

everyone's so clever!!!
i seem to be lagging behind.
i must buck upp for my term three already.
especially for my physics, literature, chinese and english and moreee.

i'm so frreaking dead.
ahhh heck.
i need a life!!!

yayyayyay.
i can train tomorrow!!!
i cant wait!!!
i think right,
netball training has became slacker. after the secfour left.
oh no. must motivate everyone to train harder.

life is such a drag nowaday.
i just go school, study, come home, slack.
i have nno life.

i miss orchard. haha.
wanna go back there.
asap.

oh man.

my sms exceeded. 1043 messages. my highest record ever, my first and the last.
my parents did not say much, surprisingly. They just went like, "why your bills so high ah? next time you must pay the exceeded amount already."
-mutter-

Ah, heck la, i'm just glad that they did not confiscate my phone like some parents did. they wouldn't want me out of the house without a phone anyway. they cant contact me =)
but i must cut down on the number of messages i send out. i have only 700 free smses. *must keep that in mind* and considering the fact that they spent over hundred bucks for my fever and cough, i guess it's only right for me to cut down.

anyway

i have this sudden liking for diamond studs. anything that glitters and shines. ahhhh, gonna go get them one day.

went library to get books just now with lingyan. didnt get to slack in the library coz she had to see the doctor. i just realised that everyone's falling sick. it must be that damned threefive aircon. even mrs lim said she can smell and staleness and stillness of the air.

someone please go get it fixed.

got back my chem and bio papers already. Didnt do too badly, i guess, but i could have done better.never mind, there's always term 3.

functions suck. totally.

bullshit.

urgh. my mum doesnt allow me to watch house of wax with my friends tomorrow. urgh. coz she claims that im still sick. and she doesn't allow me to go for netball trainings next week.

ptffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.

i wanna go.

bullshitbullshitbullshit.

and i still wanna go library.

yay yay yay i finished my 2500 words compo. it's all down on the four sheets of paper. wrote a total of 8 pages, hopefully there is enough crap. my ending was stupid. haiya. think of a better one later la.

damn, can anyone teach me functions? i dunno a single damn thing on it!! *shriek* and i think we have a worksheet on it.

arghh. i wanna go to the library.

im sick of writing compo. totally squeezing out my brain juices to put something on those pathetic pieces of paper but my compo isnt getting anywhere.

urgh, sick of it. ok fine. the compo is not due till next next week. but i wanna get it over and done with.

i wanna go to the library. i need books!!!

yeah, i've finally came up with a topic for my 2500 words compo. i want to write on split personality. haha. ya ya i got the idea from channel 8 drama serial but nope, i'm not going to copy the the thing entirely. i cant also what.

but my plot is gonna be really complication. all my thoughts are in a jumbled-up and disorganized state. have to sort them out.

skiiped my tuitions for today. haha, dunno why but my mum allowed me to. so i wanna get my compo done.

kkz, better go start on it. =)

heyy anyway, netball trainings starts next week.
time to train upp again =)

man, i am so depressed.

i cried for the first time this year and i couldnt believe it. i cried over an unfinished chinese paper. i couldnt think, not with that drilling thingy from the construction site behind me.

no, i couldn't.

and i was ocassionally assauted by small small insects and there was once when this stupid big spider came hopping up the table leg. never take the test outside fourone classroom. it seemed as though you were put right in the middle of a forest.

lit was crap. i couldn't get myself in a exam-thinking mode. i went like, "shitshitshit, i don't get a single shit," when i saw my passage. lit was crrap. crrapped all my way through but i was quite amazed by my crapping skills since i wrote loads more than i thought i could. but i think i'll flunk it as well.

amaths was pure shit. this is the worst paper i've set for and the first time i'm experiencing a mental block this year. maybe i'm too distraught and distracted by my failed chinese paper. i couldn't think and i can't blame the damn construction site this time round.

i was like do do do, then oh no *skip*
do do do, oh no, *skip*

but luckily i finished the coordinate geometry thing. the question 4a answer suddenly struck me and i rushed through the whole question in less than 5 mins. cut loads of steps but luckily i didnt rush for nothing. got the answer.

went home with lingyan. didn't talk much. was too upset by the amaths paper, for lingyan, lit cum chi cum amaths paper for me. we walked with our head bent low and umbrellas dripping wet in our hands. we were two depressed kids then.

got back homee and realised that my broadband internet connection had problems. just when the world seems to be crushing down on me, my internet connection had to screw up. took a loong nap and my dinner and yeahhhhhhh, my internet thing worked. was planning to call singnet people to help me fix it up.

just realised that i haven had any decent food for days. it was plain white porridge, if not noodles. where did my fries go? *wail* my cough wont go away. i'm been coughing rather violently this few days though i'm taking medicine dutifully. and i want to go back to netball!!! i'm fairing back , and i'm gaining weight and i miss it. okay, fine, i'm not gaining weight, i lost one kilogram. damn.

i wanna get well fast.
cheerupp=)


hey evona, was sicck so couldnt get u a pressie for your birthday, give u a belated one k? and u haven pass me eileen's pressie lehh. have to wait till next week le. haiyoo.

did maths. from 4 plus to 6 plus. and from 7 plus to 8 plus. i seriously have no life. ok fine, it's exam period and i should study, but still... couldn't take it and whee~ im online. =)

anyway i think my fever has finally gone down. my cough isn't getting any better. been coughing my day away. i cant laugh, cant scold people, cant scream, cant sing. damn. im so sad.

anyway today letch, mas and i were complaining about life. in the middle of maths and geog period. i don't know what triggered that conversation, maybe it's the emaths paper, or maybe, we are just sick of how our life current go. we come school, study, go home, study. the same thing repeat itself monotonously.

and we couldn't figure something.
we couldn't see the point of learning functions.
we couldn't see the point of learning coordinates geo.
we couldn't see the point of learning weathering.
we couldn't why singapore children are being mentally tortured since a tender age.

wadeverr la.

i have like 3 more tests to go while the rest have one. freakass.

Didnt go school today. damn. hafta retake 2 tests. 2 more tests then other. ptfffffff.. unfair. but my temperature doesn't seem like subsiding. stayed at home, studied geog and sleep.

Cant believe that i've been to three different clinics in 3 consecutive days. I don't know how many different pills i've taken. *bleargh. I wanaa get well soon.

miss threefive. but i swear. the classroom's air is stale and bacteria cum virus infested. i swear!!! and it has been carrying a funny smell don't know since when.

yuckss.

i need an oxygen tank. fast.

my temperature flew up to 38.5 degree celcius. grreat. just what i need now. so i doubt that i'll be going school tomorrow. ahhhhhhhhh, going to miss 2 papers. damn. should have stayed at home today and miss social studies. now i have to retake 2 tests.

freakass.

anyway i witnessed something shocking today but i didnt say anything. i dunno what to say. now i understood why letch had that sudden blog thinger about racism. and they way you called her names in a language that she doesnt know, it makes the whole thing worse. if you had the guts to call her name, why in a language that is foreign to her? she cant retaliate.

and you are someone we are suppose to look up to.

bullshit.

bullshitbullshitbullshit.

Everyone should listen to tonghua.
it's frreaking nice.

falling in lurrvvee with it all over again...

damn i hate my com. i really really do.

changed my template to the previous one coz i think the i love myself one got a bit screwed up. i think i'll just stick to this la.

Got up this morning with a series phlegm infested cough and then wasted the entire morning stoning in the clinic. waited for like 45 minutes before my turn came and emerged out of the room within 10 minutes. *bleargh. the doc took my weight which is 38kg (damn, i lost 1 kg) and my height which is still the same. 152cm. I never grow, but i didnt shrink either. so i guess it isnt all bad. then immediately started on social studies revision after taking the medicine. studied for one and a half hour straight.

then slept coz the cough syrup's doing its magic.

woke up one and a half hour later and my parents still werent back and so was my lunch. replied some smses and my parents came back. it's so unfair. i want mr bean too, with pearls also. but i cant drink it!!! my sister was feasting on it while i eat my lunch. frreakass. studied geog and now online.

gonna study maths later.

i wanna get well and drink mr bean!!!

Anyway, there wouldn't be netball training next week. Called madamn Waheeda. Pass the message to all the people k though I'll probably sms tomorrow. But please pass down the message. Thanks.

juts been online for less than 15 minutes and my com hanged.
frreak. i cant stand this. stupid comm. *cursecursecurse*

anyway, my brain is fried.
godd, of all time, i must have a fever now.
bullshit lah.
felt so warm and cold at the same time. crrap. but if there isnt any social studies tests on tuesday, i wouldn't have even comtemplated to go school.

anyway, i've finally bought jody her birthday present. Went J8 with natalie to go shop for her present and i really bought something really crap for her la. Coz both of us really could not think of anything that she needs now. She has like everthing, that coww.

I bought a pair of rectangle earrings and was planning to buy a coloured earrings and a pair of dismond studs. *smack self. stopp splurging!!!!* but spending makes me happy. Haha, coz I really like the feeling of having something you like. Yeah =)

Then Nat bought earrings also and I bought shoeslaces for my sister. Then we scurried home coz we were afraid that we would spend more. Then came back home and instinct told me that I was having a temperature. Took my thermometer and I was right. Took pills, studied a little before napping. Then woke up, studied Geog.

Stupid geog.


Freaking lot to study. Freakass. Tell me, who cares about weathering!!!
Don't think anything entered my fried brain coz my brain cells died. I guess. Gosh, what if my enzymes all denatured?

Did a little bit of amaths revision on quadractic graphs. Was quite mixed coz I forgot quite a few things. Gonna clarify them. I don't intend to fail my amaths, can't afford to anyway.

Ohh and my hair just returned to the shape of the cartoon version of a xmas trees with those stupid waves and everything. And the worse part is i'm suppose to let down my freaking hair for the chi advertisement. Coz we are doing on some hairgrowth product. Damn, i need them. I hope the chi teacher forgot about the assignment. *pRaaay*

Hair, please grow.

xueling

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