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Friday, July 30, 2004

havent been blogging for a long time. was too busy too... hmmm... let's see what happened during the past few days...

yesterday's ipw presentation was not too great... classmates kept bombarding us with questions... but... haiz... did not really answer all questions but our idea could not been fault-less right? we cannot accomodate to everyone and we werent even going to produce the uniforms. never mind.

netball. skills must have deproved since coach put me as GA after playing one quart of center and replace natalie into my position. ya. but okay... but lope passes werent really improving. truthfully it is getting more and more shitty... must improve le... haiz... but i do not know the right way of throwing a lope. =(

today+++
had to meet madm lim for the ~~stupid~~ leadership workshop in hougang sec tmr at 8 am!!! damn... and on sun i have tuition at 9am.. haiz... i hate my life. o ya... waited for like 30 mins cuz the upper sec were hving a colours award rehearsal. den the briefing was only a mere 10 mins talk. wah lao... saw one upper sec doze off while waiting... so funny... saw claire, ya wen and juliana!!! going to get award for netball!!!o ya... can any kind soul tell me the way to go hougang sec. just tell me what bus to take and where to stop. pls... i need my s l e e p... desperately...

haiz... currently having a sore throat. maybe i can be sick enough so that i can skip that workshop? heh heh heh... maybe not. haiz...

never mind... i must jia you le...

=== to natalie====
HAPPY BRITHDAY NATALIE!!!

paiseh have to buy late pressie for you. =( being your friend for so many donkey years... [poor me...]i officially sing you a advanced bday song...

happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to you u...
happy bithday to you...

[ the song kinda lame... the lyrics all the same de... -.-"]

hope u get your goldstar, learn taekwando, kayaking, canoeing and scuba diving...

rock on gal...

Monday, July 26, 2004

hmmm... finished 4 durians in a row. hopefully i dont get a sore throat or what...

madam loh did not come today... yea!!! so was slcking the whole period away. vowed to bring my discman whenever there is a science period. hahaz... looking forward to science lessons now... BIG SURPRISE... hahaz... okay... hmmm... chinses test was quite all right. but forgot one ~~goddamn~~ chengyu... just couldnt think of it...
save 4 bucks today!!! wHoO hOo~ felt accomplished. sorry if i used the accomplised word incorrectly... never mind..

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yesterday...
being so damn goal-less, natalie and i went in search for our future-in the sengkang library... hahaz... search under career guidence and being curious, i took out some books on fiancial management. heex~

found this really good book called... eh... forgot le but was something to do with leadership. yuppiex... that was gooood... den we bought a book each in popular to pen down our sudden inspiration so that we wont forget it or something. hahaz...

both of us really wish to take up takewando classes but is like kinda hard to find. i know, most community centres do but most of them offer night classes and where we live? khatib and sengkang. so far apart... sad...

today was kinda moodier and quieter than usual. firstly, i forgot to bring my water bottle, thus i have to 70 cents on mineral water... damn... den was kinda pissed at someone but never mind. now i am okay...

waiting for some idiotic guy to reply me... idiot larx...

never mind...

now, i am officially pissed!

Saturday, July 24, 2004

no use moaning about your already mutilated life. you cant change anything yet. if you want to change the impression that you gave to other people, you got to change yourself first. no use bitching about others. you said that you dun like people bitching about you behind your back, then why are you bitching about people behind their backs? you are as bad as them.

this message is for no one in particular anyway. just stating the fact.

currently at home all alone. my family is in northpoint now i guess. do not feel like going. so xian. damn the chinese idioms. i cannot remember quite a lot of them. especially those cheem cheem ones, those unheard of de. i am so screwed. haiz...

feeling kinda depressing now.

wanted to gym today but mum did not allow me to due to that stupid chi idioms test this mon. was so damn pissed. did not talk to her, and even if i did, i talked to her in a very bu shuang tone. i mean i learnt all my chi idioms yesterday but oh well... not very well. but still i have like 2 more days to study and it is not as if i am going overseas or what. i am just going to the GYM for heaven sake. and she forbided me to? *shake head*

i hate my life.

i spent 75% of my life worrying about my exams, 20% on other stuff like friendships and maybe finacial thingy and cca and maybe that pathetic 5% is for my er... happiness or joy. life is so miserable in this century. it is sinful to give birth to a child. it is equals to introducing the innocent child to the tremendous pressure he or she is going to face later on in life.

screw the world.

Friday, July 23, 2004

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currently in eileen's house. we are chatting online when we are sorta beside each other... haha... ya.. dicussing about ipw... ya... if you call this discussing... today.. racial harmony. wore ankita's so beautiful indian costumes. ya... was so hot in the female changing room. ya... eileen looked great in sarah's malay costumes. but i think that was sarah's clothes that made eileen, ermmm..., great. hahaz..

oOpX...

had a emergency thingy where they made us assemble in the carpark behind the school. was hot too but was blowing bubbles coz i was chewing chewing gum. ya... so cOoL... i finally mastered the skills. yea!!! hahaz... never mind me...

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yesterday netball practice... sec 4 seniors suddenly came. so scary lorx... but very long time never see them le... kinda glad that they came... wHeE~ did ot play well. lope passes still need to improve a lot. so shi bai. =( never mind.
o ya. and i keep clashing with lisda. once we both fell over. haiz...

nothing to blog about. o ya. we suppose to do the maths thingy on trigonometry arhz? so crappy lei. not very good at it and i dun understand what the assignment book toking about. damn. i am going to fail it. mr tan's actually a nice guy. but he should be a little firmerand stricter so that we can like behave ourselves or something. he should scold too. compare mam hee and mr tan. heaven and hll difference. o well... nvm...

shall help eileen with the project le...

c ya...

buaiz..

Sunday, July 18, 2004

hmmm... today nothing much happened actually...
tuition did quadractic graphs... was so damn confused... and 8 questions to do... haiz... the only good thing about it was that i get to the curve ruler... fUnN... hahaz.. -____-"

ya... actually really nothing happened today so nothing to blog about. o ya... my ipw group. the time settled ah... thurs we stay back to do ipw and if we cannot finish then continue on saturday morning. if we keep procrastinating, we wont be able to get it done. okay? and kumaran is just so uncontactable... so settled? =)

okay... c yaa den...

buaiz

Saturday, July 17, 2004

got it from friendster...
bored...
I~~
I AM: xUeLinG
I WANT: to enjoy life now
I HAVE: stop procrastinating
I WISH: to have a wonderful life
I HATE: to get accused of something i've not done [but who doesnt nayway]
I MISS: my pri school life
I FEAR: regreting
I HEAR: eh... nothing?
I WONDER: why we have to study... the more we learn, the more i forget.
I REGRET: being a rotten person
I LOVE: to slack
I ALWAYS: PROCRASTINATE!!!
I DANCE: eh... hardly
I SING: everyday. stef sun rocks.
I CRY: when i am angry, disappointed nad miserable
I AM NOT ALWAYS: ...
I LOST: my innocence [corrupted]
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: everything
I SHOULD: think about my life

Yes or No
You keep a diary: yes
You like to cook: yaa...
You have a secret you have not shared with
anyone: nope... hahaz
You believe in love: yup

Do you
Have a/any crush/es: lalalalalalala...
Want to get married: erm...
Think you're a health freak: not really. i cram myself with junk food.
Get along with your parents: yaa..

Favourite
NUMBER(S): 9, 99
COLOR: orange, black, pink
DAY: friday
MONTHS: jan and dec
FOOD: chocolate
DRINKS: iced water
SEASON: winter
SPORT: nEtBaLL

Preferences
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: cuddle
CHOCOLATE MILK OR VANILLA: chocolate.
In the last 24 hours have you
CRIED? nope
HELPED SOMEONE? guess so. >.<
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yep. my ruler!!!
GOTTEN SICK? nope.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? nahz...
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? nope. tuition*
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? eh... i not that qin lao...
TALKED TO AN EX? no...

WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? ya
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yepp...
HUGGED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? nope
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no
PLAYED ANY GAMES ONLINE? i dun play...

hmmm... today finally bought a new ruler... can you believe it? i lost all my 6 rulers and this is my seventh one... bLuR~ today's steven tuition was quite relax... did only oral... so only hafta listen to the teacher crap... hahaz... tomorrow still have tuition at 9am... damn.. i want my sleep lei...

ppl, there is no history test next week right? please say no... i didnt bring home my history textbook, only my notebook, which is so filled with my doodling... lottas pics, little words. shit.. o well.. never mind. but mind mapping is kinda fun. you will find studying history fun coz u get to draw. hahaz... never mind me. i am a little crazy today. kkz...

nothing much to blog.

nitex ppl...

c yaa...

Friday, July 16, 2004

i am officially pissed at mediawork for changing the time slot for the fireman show at 7pm every weekdays. they changed it to 10.45pm... what the hell??? how am i suppose to watch it? inconsiderate people... this is where they lose to mediacorp... mediacorp rawkz man... ya...

okay... shall not comment any further.

today was okay. heard that the bball girls won the match against yishun town. cOngRaTeS to all you guyz... or erm... gurlz... ya..

practised my lope passes and shooting with natalie... jody taught us a way to throw lope passes quite effectively. yupp... lope kinda improved but need more practices... and my shooting was simply atrocious. ya..

damn... yesterday netball practices... erm... lope passes were like shit... not high enough so got intercepted by opponents... felt really depressed and guilty. sorry chin ping... >.<

eh... now what is that thingy doing on this page? what does blogger mean by the change time and date. are we supposed to write ourselves when this post is written? never mind. shall ignore...

short entry this time. nothing extraordinary happened today. o ya... i spent all my money yesterday and today. never save my usual $2. damn larx... so shi bai... *shall not splurge it on unnecessary stuff*

nitez people...

gotta wash shoes and shoes bag. xian ar... -.-

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

hmmm... nothing much happened...

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yesterday.. had netball practice... i don't like to wear contact lenses to school.. very ma fan. and after netball have to wash it again. haiz... ya... i am lazy.. plain lazy. did the tiptoe-ing and hand raising thingy again. since the singapore netballers did that for warm up too, i took it more seriously... ya... did side steps, skipping, jogging, back track and a lot of stuffs... leg muscles were screaming in pain. but... oh well... heck la... did normal stuff... shooting.. er... same as usual... shitty, i mean. den played games. played three quarts if i am not wrong. you know, my memory's failing me. sad* ya... first played center. opponent was natalie. hahaz... fUnN.. den was GA, i think. opponent was a junior called xin yi or something. a nice girl. den GA again. opponent was peijin... a very nice senior too. hahaz... very joky de.. okay... returned home feeling exhausted.

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today... didnt save my usual $2... splurged it on lunch. mainly was bubble tea. damn... maybe i can take coins to increase my income... so i can save the 2 bucks in the end...hmmm... maybe.. got back maths paper but shall not talk about it... passed it but still not good.
chinese and history was okay...

nothing else to blog. b-o-r-i-n-g day...

sayo...

c yaa tmr...

got netball, nida wear contacts again..

x i a n...

Monday, July 12, 2004

damn... i have serious attitude problem... damn...

i shall not glare or roll eyes at teachers again...

i shall remain emotionless when teachers scold me...

i shall pay attention in class, especially m.loh's lesson...

haiz... *shake head*

most importantly...

i shall improve my attitude.

damn. i suck at being a nice and understanding friend. i suck at prodikeys. i suck at english. i suck, with my attitude. i suck...

shall have a short entry today. nothing much to blog except that i dont seem to like school and ALWAYS talk at the wrong time thus resulting in getting dirty looks from teachers. WHY? i don't even used to be like that. i used to be a very active student in primary school. hardly an enemy, or i think. jovial and happy. now? i am simply miserble.

erm. okay... maybe not. maybe i am a rebellious students all along. i remember when a teacher said that my 'j' looked like an 'i' and refused to give me marks for it, i was so angry that i stuck my tongue out. not at the teacher but okay... maybe the whole class saw but... ya... i wasnt punished.. hahaz...

never mind.

i bet the singapore netballers have a positive attitude and i wish i have too. ya... i shall have one.

attiude is a small thing that make a big difference.

and i cant seem to interact with my friends very well lately. GOD! what's wrong with me? never mind. just now couldnt decide to say journal or diary when i was having a conversation with my sis. so i ended up with this non-existing word called 'jiary'. talk about pro english. haiz...

never mind.

am tired today.

shall go watch tv.

slack...

o man...

i hopelessly hopeless.

buaiz

c yaa tmr...

have a nice day.

Sunday, July 11, 2004

watched the match singapore against papua new guinea again... ya... singapore lost to them again... but never mind... the same comments as yesterday... singaore netballers totally rock... yes...

o ya... forgot to tell you guyz that the papua new guinea's GS is like... er... hate her... bLoOdY~ she always has a smirk on her face when she shoots in and either clap her hand or does a little dance... i almost puked out what i ate for lunch. *roll eyes* and she was so super noisy and aggressive. pity our singapore GK. had to bear with her for like 3 days for 3 hours and she looked so small size beside that gigantic monster. damn damn damn... shall not comment further...

during the second quarter, my coach encouraged us to go down to shoot. ya... so i went... was so damn nervous... my hands were like frozen? hahaz... no one wanted to go first and so the organizer, i think, or at least the in charge pulled me gently to the court and told me to shoot. er.. ya... the pole was small... 10% smaller than our school's netball pole. managed to put the goal in after 2 trys. was so malu. got a little souvenir, something from energizer. -______-"

hahaz... ya... really want to be in the singapore netball team... really hope to be in. but is kinda... i dunno... i dont qualify in it ... i still have a lot to improve on. i have to train on my speed and stamina and everything. leart a lot from the two matches i watched. wonder when's the next game. i want to watch too.

after that went my grandma's house for dinner. grandpa gave me 50 bucks... whee~ dunno whether to spend or save it... hope to buy a better sports shoes. nike air de. aid in jumping as they have springs in it. but maybe buy next year. i wore my current one like less than 1 year. waste money.

went home and watch a little of nkf charity show. but i find that they are giving out the prizes a little...er...extreme. i mean they could have donate the huge amount of money to nkf right? ppl should donate money to help to the needy ones. not to get the prizes. oh well... never mind.

argggg... school's starting again. xian ar... dun want to get back maths paper. never do 2 qn sia. cost me like 11 marks. die. sigh*

SINGAPORE NETBALL TEAM [RAWKZ]

really admire them.

visit their website *here

c ya...

buaiz...

nitez ppl..

Friday, July 09, 2004

they rock, they rock, they rock, they rock, they rock, they rock, they rock... YES, SINGAPORE NETBALL TEAM ROCKS... ya... so what if they lost to papua new guinea in the test series day 1? they were so resilence, so calm and cOoL... unlike the papua new guinea. their coach alomost shouted her lungs at her players such that their scorer had to sheesh her. hahaz...

the papua new guinea players were so much fleshier than our singapore's ones and they made way too much mistakes. their contacts and obstructions... and their way too obvious stepping and offside that the referee didnt seem to notice it...

but okay, both were good yesterday. really good. i was or maybe still am motivated by them. their speed and stamina and ya, the shooters' shooting was like WHOA. i mean, singapore's shooters. they were practically standing at the rim of the semi circle and they still manage to put the ball in. the arc that the ball travelled was so beautiful. the papaua new guinea's shooters love to stand underneath the pole to shoot. haiz... look at my shooting? *heart flops*

aRgHHhHHH... i wonder how much longer i have to train to get to their standard. haiz... couldnt go today. mum dun allow as i have that stupid tuition. daMn... hopefully i can go tomorrow? anyway it is free admission to singapore sports school... ya today match is at 7.30pm and tomorrow's at 3pm. ya... just walk to woodlands bus interchange, take 901 bus and drop off opposite christ church sec school. the sports school can be seen from there.

talking about sports school, it is so bloody big.. with a very nice fountain and WHAT??? indoor carpark!!! ya... their netball court, needless to say, is indoor too. and is as grand as the place we went for the match for our school's bball b girls. ya... saw jovina choo too. same hair style and everything and heard that she clinched the gold for a particular sailing match and she beat the boys in it!!! ya... she was transferred to sports school last year. before trasfer, ya, she was in netball. she's superb nice.~~

wah... rushed home to catch a child's hope. sadly, only managed to watch the last 20 twenty mins. maths got so much homework. and i hate doing graphs. shit larx... gotta eat breakfast le...

c ya...

SINGAPORE RULES~

Thursday, July 08, 2004

I.P? should i go for it or not? i mean, not as if i will get in. part of me encourage me to fill in the form but other half of me don't want to go. at least there is hope of getting in a jc if u fill in the form but i am not ready to give up anderson netball team and er.. ya.. all my friends. IF I GET IN LA...

then if one manage to get in, is he going to cope with all the new subjects and stress and everthing? and you have to be willing to forgo lottas thing like being a couch potato, slacking and everything? truthfully i am not ready for it. and i dun want to be in a different school as natalie. she is my best friend ever like since i was p2. and i dun want to let the gap between us widen like what happened to my best friends now in ahmad ibrahim. really sad thing. sNifFx..

so ya... returned the form (to temasek jc) back to kumaran. kinda relunctant but... i dunno... i am so indecisive. i scare i will regret if i never apply but i scare i will regret if i get in. with a change in environment and friends and everything. i am one who will die without friends. yea.. i am afriad of loneiness... but sec 3 will spilt up anyway and u will get new friends lorx... damnit... should i apply or should i not... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......

eileen's applying... for her future... she wants to be a doctor so ya... this will definately benefit. she has a goal. me? i am so goal-less... i have not a single clue what i want to be. i want to be a doctor after watching a child's hope 1 and 2 but it is not easy. a lot of your time will be spent on studying medical and it is not cheap either. and i am not sure whether i can make it.

most importantly i am not bright.

crapz... '

okay... enough liao...

yesterday had netball training... it was raining so had training in the canteen. was very fun when i practised two hand snatch with natalie... did not do that for a long time... really enjoyed myself. rain stopped when we were about to play game... so lucky sia.. so shifted to court and played games... i played center twice and ga once. the 2nd time i played center, it was horrible. i cant throw a decent pass... horrendous. GA? hmmm... shot in like once only? cOoL huh? requested my dad to fetch me coz i had this really heavy maths file after m.hee was done with checking mine. did not want to lugged it all the way back home. my arms would break de and i treasure them.

today... hmmm... for music did prodikeys. tell ya something... i SUCK... o man... how am i suppose to pass the assignment. damn damn damn... AHHHHHH... i prefer recorder. how arhz? i am so so dead. how come music got counts de... made my brain got haywire.. o no...

later going to warch match. singapore against papua new guinea i think. cant wait... shall update about it maybe tomorrow. hope that i can rush home in time to catch a child's hope 2. it is so nice.

okay...

c ya...

buaiz... >.<

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

i cant enjoy my food...
damn the ulcers...
damn you...

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did not blog yesterday so shall blog now... yesterday, hmmm.. nothing much happened except that we had to leave our classroom promptly at two, so brought along our bags... looked so weird and stupid... hahaz... kkz... efl was kinda farnie... ya... family problems... den had netball practices.. was very pissed at someone but not saying who. who does she think she is? keep shouting de... not considering whether what the others said was right or not. she is also so damn bloody bias... and give so many comments which are usually not neccessary. really bu shuang.

haiz... i really have to learn my rage, anger. hahaz... ya... scare i will become violent one day...

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today... got evacuated out of our classroom by some teacher i think. ya... eileen and my locker's bursting. damn. how i wish i could expand it somehow. wouldnt that be cOoL? just listened to "yi han" from spices siblings . really missed it. sNiFfX...
eileen and i wanted to ask the office people whether we can keep the 2 a child's hope posters after they are done with displaying. but we kept 'procrastinating' since friday and till now we still have not stepped into the office... hEeX~ but i really want to poster since jeanette and felicia chin are in it..

damn..

cant wait for waters champion or is it the champions to show on tv... jeanette, felicia chin and fiona in it. wHeE~ no matter what i must catch it. *rachel from eye for guy will be in too but seriously i do not really like her. but she is in the opponent team and the 8 days magazine said that the opponent team are all very bitchy... haha...

yea!!! no homework today... hipPeE~

going to watch singapore against some country netball match this friday in the singapore sports school. cant wait too...

okay...

think enough le lah...

c ya...

and remember to give me HuGgiEx... >.<

Sunday, July 04, 2004

finally got a tagboard...
thanks yiling... [the person that made this template, she is so pro lorx]

hmmm... damn... have two ulcers planted in my mouth that deprived me from my fave food like macDonald, KFC and chocolate... sNiFFx.. damn... now i cannot bite on the food without experiencing the pain, let alone brush my teeth... evil little things...

and now i talk while feeling my teeth brush against it...
aRgHHH.... but i know they will gradually heal by themselves after they are finished with torturing me... but it is nothing compared to the mental pain experienced by our fellows classmates... damn all those evil people...

read through history textbook le but hopefully i can remember the details.. really have no ideas what to study... eh...

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to all ANDERSON NETBALLERS [r]awkz...
we are most probably having a training tmr but coach would not be present as he has to be down with his pri school to see whether they enter 2nd round. i'm still waiting fir lisda reply... ya... but bring your pe attire and sports shoes if you want... will sms u gurlz to confirm.. ya?

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damn i'm bored...
yea... my blog is completed after adding shoutbox..
yixuan helped me signed up for tagboard but could not login and i forgot my doodleboard id... so now i have shoutbox... 3 accounts all together... wah... felt that my blog wasnt complete when there wasnt a tagboard, like a human without a head or something.. ya... weird...

yiling showed me someone designing templates that closely resemble hers.. damn that person la... creativity= nil, nada... and her colours' not even nice lorx... go c.. click here ... ya... shall not comment any further...

c ya...

lunch time..

buaiz...

c ya...

happy youth day to everyone... >.<

hahaz... i wrote so many posts today.. hmmm... maybe trying to relish back the joy of blogging... damn damn damn... couldnt get a tagboard... damn damn damn.. but nvm... shall live up to the disappointment...

thanks yixuan for helping so much but i am such a failure... sorry...

but eh... maybe without a tagboard is better since people tend to drop by and leave nasty comments on ur innocent bloggie... hmmm... but i like to read comments on the tagboard... WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

i am such a idiot... why did i delete my blog for heaven sake... damn damn damn...

just revised a little bit of history but the prob is that i just couldnt register them in mind... haiz... i am so slackish man... history reminded me of the time when mr neo took my history notebook and went like, "whoa so many notes." my insides cringed... but see, the notes were written like last year, when i thought there was this freaky history test, but since i clean forgot the contents inside. it doesnt make a different right?

damn... gotta get my hugs counter and xiao shuai ge back... should be revising my history but heck la...

gotta go le...

buaiz...

c ya...

nitex...

whee~ got this template from my sis... simply go into her account and copy and paste... was lazy to search for new ones... whee~ but lost quite a no of things like my shuai ge and my hugs counter... had 300+ hUgGieS lei... sNiFfx...

hmmm... yesterday... went lib with natalie coz we had to photocopy the books' coverpage and whatever info... went causeway to lunch first before hitting the lib. had this plate of fried rice with meat and curry potato. Guess how much it cost? $5.10. daylight robbery!!! and the rice had so much peas that it wasnt even nice lei...

nat wanted to buy wallet and we entered op to browse... fell in love with this white and pink op wallet that had " op surfer girl" on it... but because it's white i had to reconsider buying it. i mean, if like 1 drop of coffee drops on it, i think i am going to kill whoever that does that heinous crime. -including myself.

but heex~ i did not bring enough cash and even if i borrowed from nat, i was still short if cash... bLooDy riCe~ so after debating for quite a long time, nat decided to go back to compass point to look at that bilabong wallet again n i am going to buy a pink blue op wallet that night...

mUaCkz~ love my wallet~

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today...
tuition... did on graphs...
just what i needed... my graphs suck...
yupp... and bought a new watch since i so violently spoilt it... yup... you noe i was like trying to put on the watch and coz i tugged it too 'brutelly', the metal thing got flucked down a whole flight of stairs... hahaz...

nothing much happened anyway except that i still have not studied for my history test... 3 loooong looong chapters sia... even thinking of me made me xian liao...

damn it...

okie... ending le...

link me horx ppl..

thankz...

damn damn... thought i could survive without a blog but found that i couldnt... hmmm... after deleting my previous one, my life's different... never mind... i am crapping... felt really great back blogging... link me k guyz?